Sunday, November 29, 2009



Feel so lazy to update blog. Well I must update something. But my brain is blank. Nothing inspire me & i think i live a very peaceful life only that filled wit some stress.

It's amazing that how life can be. Some people is happy wit just a simple plain rice + salted veggie while some ppl is sad wit Abalone rice + Shark fin soup.

These few days i realised How ppl can be easily happy maybe just a blended coffee in the morning or maybe a singing early in the morning. Rite? Did you ever put a smile on ur face the whole day by maybe a small things? It's just that the level of happy is how much & how long.

When u're kid's result come out & he gets average of 50% so u should be happy that he pass or be sad that he's result is just average?

I realise that i hav put down alot of things, I've put alot of thinking. I become less heating my temper & all i did is i cool down my brain. But of kos sometimes i still got heat up but wat can u do when u are born to be like that?

I admit that i had many more to learn and so my education still go on & my lecturer is all the ppl i meet everyday. It is for i to choose wisely wat to take & wat to throw...

So fren i know i'm kinda talking rubbish here but who cares? it's my blog :P

Wednesday, November 18, 2009


Shemale is a slang term referring to a guy trans to a woman.

I hav a she-male fren who work wit me for almost a yr. Remember the first time i interview her, she show me her Identity card. I say i don mind as long as she willing work hard. Then we're fren till now for almost a year.

From her i know more shemales ppl. They are all the same like us gals. They are also very sensitive ppl who had emotions. They are also fragile inside their heart. In short they are also human.

I think Shemale is only a mistake made by HIM. We cannot blame anyone for being wrong. But who make the rules that guy must play cars and gal must play dolls? Who set the rule that guy must wear trouser & gals must wear skirts? Some ppl just stone head!

I really admire these shemale who hav the courage to be themselves & to ignore all those humiliation. At least they never had the intend to try to hurt anyone. Better than some ppl trying to hurt each other just for their own benefit.

Some ppl say it's not right for a guy to trying to be a gal. Then wat is wrong abt it?
I try go google but all i see is shemale porno site. It's because no one is trying promo them in a positive way. That's why ppl misunderstood them. But guys n gals also hav porno site so it's the same shemale also hav good & bad!

I also see alot of successful case of she-male married a man & they live happily ever after.

So you narrow mind ppl out there if you intend to hurt those ppl i can tell u there's retribution HA! So be careful of wat u're doing cos HE is watching us =)

Monday, November 16, 2009

To Write Love On Her Arms

Fpund out something very interestin on Fb today.... "To Write Love On Her Arms".... interestin!!!!

This group is found in Fb and is dedicated to those who are depress, addicted, self injury & suicide ppl. very meaning full!

Life is so fragile and nobody deserve to contemplate suicide.

I totally understand it cos there are days when i really feel down and depress, pressure and frustration keep on pushing me. Then i really feel like ending my life & then just vanish like that. I hope to be like the ostrich that can hide my head inside a hole or a bear hibernating in the winter so that i don hav to face all those pressure.

But then I cannot be so selfish! I had my own commitment n responsibility. This will never end cos it will continue to pass to the one i love to carry on my duties. So i decided to Stand up! To Face the fact.

I'm a perfectionist. So i try to accept those un- perfect! I tell myself, life is like a roller-coaster. When u get up u feel very high, but must get down and while u're down u wanna go up. My fren told me this and which is very true... : "You cannot get wat u want, so You get wat u can"

I hope that those ppl who come across wit depression will stand up one day like me.... Love is all around & you are not alone. Stop the bleeding, Accept & Appreciate wat u hav rite now.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Life is like this...

Sometimes life is like a shit
it stinks & smelly but is good for fertilization...

Sometimes life is like a flower
it's beautiful but won't last long...

Sometimes life is like a rainbow
it's colorful but transparent...

Sometimes life is like a rollercoaster
it's scary but excited...

Sometimes life is like a music lyric
it's sometimes true but hurt...

Saturday, November 14, 2009

i never forget you...

Yah i change the song of my blog to Noisettes - Never Forget You ...

Feel so nice to listen to this song.
I never forget you,
they say we never make it
my sweet joy
always remember me....

I wonder you still remember me or not? althought u so far away from me already. you hav ur own life and i had mine. But i will still remember u ~!!!

We was mischievous lol!! I wonder if we are together now will we still stay the same or break up?! Then i wouldn't had miss u so much?!!

We human is a funny animal... We always want wat we couln't get but when we got it we're always took it for granted... But still no matter wat I will always remember you...

Eminem — Beautiful

Lately I've been hard to reach
I've been too long on my own
Everyone has a private world
Where they can be alone
Are you calling me, are you trying to get through
Are you reaching out for me, and I'm reaching out for you

I'm just so fuckin' depressed
I just can seem to get out this slump

If I could just get over this hump
But I need something to pull me out this dump
I took my bruises, took my lumps
Fell down and I got right back up
But I need that spark to get psyched back up
In order for me to pick that mic back up
I don't know how I pry away
And I ended up in this position I'm in
I starting to feel distant again
So I decided just to pick this pen
Up and tried to make an attempt to vent
But I just can't admit
Or come to grips, with the fact that
I may be done with rap
I need a new outlet
I know some shits so hard to swallow
And I just can't sit back and wallow
In my own sorrow
But I know one fact
I'll be one tough act to follow
One tough act to follow
One tough act to follow
Here today, gone tomorrow
But you have to walk a thousand miles

Walk my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
All be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what I'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other's mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each other's eyes

But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you sOoOoo
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you

I think I'm starting to lose my sense of humor
Everything is so tense and gloom

I almost feel like I gotta check the temperature in the room
Just as soon as I walk in
It's like all eyes on me
So I try to avoid any eye contact
Cause if I do that then it opens a door to conversation
Like I want that...
I'm not looking for extra attention
I just want to be just like you
Blend in with the rest of the room

Maybe just point me to the closest restroom
I don't need fucking man servin'
Tryin to follow me around, and wipe my ass
Laugh at every single joke I crack
And half of them ain't even funny like that
Ahh Marshall, you're so funny man, you should be a comedian, god damn
Unfortunately I am, but I just hide behind the tears of a clown
So why don't you all sit down
Listen to the tale I'm about to tell
Hell, we don't have to trade our shoes
And you don't have to walk no thousand miles

Walk my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
All be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what I'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other's mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each other's eyes

But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you sOoOoo
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you sOoOoo

Lately I've been hard to reach
I've been too long on my own
Everyone has a private world
Where they can be alone... sOoOoo
Are you calling me, are you trying to get through OoOo
Are you reaching out for me, and I'm reaching out for you sOoOoo Oo Oo


This song is so Fucking depress ( sorry for the harsh word) but it's complete wat i feel rite now... me! let's trade shoes, let's c wat's it like to be like me.... just to feel my pain and i feel yours!

Friday, November 13, 2009

離婚協議書 (轉貼, 作者:佚名)



我會幫他打點上班 的衣物,什麼襯衫配什麼領帶,經過我的審美才准他穿上身








因此,洗手台上Hello Kitty和小叮噹圖樣,漱口杯左右對峙,小叮噹的杯裡插著一支綠色牙刷,是我的,Hello Kitty則是空的,因為他前一陣子已改用電動牙刷,擺在架子上。
























































































而擺在盥洗室的漱口杯,他根本搞不清楚小叮噹是他的或Hello Kitty才是他的,他以為粉紅色是女孩子的頻色,所以他一直用著小叮噹的嗽口杯。

原來,我們一直在無形間,做著親密的唇齒交流,可憐了Hello Kitty,擺在那兒沒人用,成了個裝飾品。








































「只是因為無聊嗎?如果一個人在家無聊,妳想出去學東西、去工作、和朋友 去逛街,我不會阻撓妳。」





























可是 ……



這個意思是… …?














this is wat i found on the web few days ago and had abt 30,000 ppl comments & 100,00 ppl like it. But personally i really don like this. Cos i feel that this gal is very dumb & naive. Like I say eat full nothing to do think so many rubbish!

Really probably this story is for those Rich Ppl who's rich wife eat full nothing to do or those old aunty like my mum who no need work just stay home watch kids! but most of the gals nowadays will also work after married/ hav kids. Everyone will be bz earning money.

THAT GAL is very lucky cos she don hav financial prob or kid prob. so all her heart is think nonsense abt her husband. Bu

Come on ppl, go back to reality ~ if really like this happen, if u are that gal would u go for a divorce? Guys would u just sit there calmly n explain bit by bit to the wife...?

nah! who would still hav the time to sit at home think nonsense? duh!!

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Curtin 2004

when i post in my shout out at Fb " wat to blog?!!" Colin comments: blog abt me!!! lol!! all those memories pop back...

Curtin Uni in Miri had all our sweet sweet memories!! I was always named by Colin " the walking Chimney" as I always smoke during breaks and as wat i call my smoke break: " Charge battery" lol... I bet we're the most popular class in that yr as I the OLDEST one will always start giving headache to our lecturers! We talk back to our lecturers, making friend with them so i bet most of them are impress... We even hav party at one our lecturer's house.

We hav lot's of parties, outing, watching movies. We'll always had steam boat BBQ when someone's birthday. Even there's no occasion we're also have parties at Simon/ Kok Ye/ Zai zai/ Colin's house. Then we'll play truth or dare which is just some silly truth or dare game. always ppl will take the dare and our silly task will be like sweeping the neighbor path/kissing some gals/ call someone to say I LOve You... duh!!! silly isn't it!! Then we drink and drunk and disturbing our neighbor who is also our Uni-mates ler lol!!!

Sometimes we go to watch movies together. I remember one time when we watch the " Six Strong guy"at the cinema. When half way we watch some smoke come out and then everyone were shock thought wat happen. Later found out there's some stupid guy smoke in front of us =S

Another thing wat we always enjoy to do... Ka-ra-OKing lol... When everyone was trying to get a hold wit the Mic!! Trying to become Singer of the night!!!

Hm... now i remember!! I am always the driver... sending everyone back to Senadin!!duh!!!

Now after 5 yrs everything had change.... I miss u all guys... I don wan to name u all one by one cos i scared i've miss anyone of ur names...

All i wanna say : Take care PPL you know who you are.... really miss all the time we had together. For each petal on the shamrock this brings a wish your way. Good health, good luck, and happiness for today and every day.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009


I was having insomnia for abt 4yrs and finally i was recover after my daughter was born. Most probably is because she took over all my time and all my mind is her her her.... then my sleeping hour become fix.. I sleep and wake up at the same time everyday... That's how my insomnia recover.

I never thought i would get Mr. I ( Short of Insomnia) back until the other day we're doing this glamour shot Promo. Starts wit cannot reach the 50ppl targets then My mother -in law last min cannot baby sit the kids and the staff hav transportation problem. I admit i'm a PERFECTIONIST! but heck I'm born to be like that. So for that one whole month ever since we decide to hav this promo I can't sleep. I start to headache the target, the money, the babies....

The nite before the event starts I sleep at 4.30am and wake up at 7am+ =S In the end I reach my 50ppl targets and of kos very hapi to see my competitor kena complaints la~ but all hav a happy ending....

now i really hav to find a way to cure Mr. I .... I know most ppl would say: counting sheeps, drinks warm milk, relax, hav warm bath, aromatherapy should be good, But sometimes when the poison gets too deep nothing would work. Really cos it's very hard to leave ur mind blank.

So here i Fig out some best way for me to Ask MR. I to go away

1. Dr. Tron :a bio-electron potential therapy medical equipment. . The function of this machine is to give purification to the whole body, enhance immune system, improves metabolism & regulating nervous system. So esp to those lazy to exercise, this machine is the best but the price of this machine is not abit cheap... LoL! anyway i'm not trying to promote this but it's the last option.

2. The body shop's Dreamy pillow & body mist: It has Jujube Dates which is say to promotes deeper sleep. This mist helps to soothes the skin n hav calming effects.

3. Imagine a black room and u're in it.... tell urself i don want to think of anything, I hav nothing in my mind... blank blank blank... ( lame but sometimes it work)

Thursday, November 5, 2009


bored + bored = super bored... don know wat to do.... I found out that i keep giving myself excuses n excuses to not getting some thing done ( i even force myself to Blog) all is be cos of 1 words : Lazy!!!

hm... Lazy can be cause by born to be lazy or a habit to be lazy... shees!!! ok lets not talk abt lazy...

today's google so cute... it's a Cookie Monster eating the Google words made by cookies lol!!!

Yesterday go to watch Ninja.... one word... "Boring" maybe b4 the movie start the show the Trailer for " Ninja Assassin" by Rain so most probably don expect much abt it...

Should watch the "This is it by MJ" should be more worth it... everyone is asking " You book already?"" the tickets should be fully book!!!" I say Hello!!! This is Brunei... How could it be Fully book? wit abt 3 big cinema showing it at the same time most prob 4-5 times per day for one week.... plus this movie only interested by ppl age group of 20+ to 40 wat...

sometimes those ppl will over -react.... unless u see tonz of tourist flooding Brunei then for sure the tickets' fully book...

I wonder why they did not show " Jennifer's Body" =( kinda disappointed...

Thursday, October 22, 2009


Today i heard from the Radio, the DJ says... Stress is one of the routine of our daily's life. I think that stress is not given by other thing's / anyone, it's given by own's self. Everyone has their own desire and need. If one cannot achieve it or getting it we'll be start giving ourself pressure and this is how stress come from.

I totally understand that why ppl committed suicide. This is because the pain inside the heart and soul is so hurt that makes the brain feel so numb. All those hurts can be given by other ppl or one self.

It's always eazy to say relax, don worry be happy, don think too much. But yet how many ppl hav did it? How many ppl really understand that " stressed is desserts spell backwards??"

Now i try to clear my mind for everything. Just like my hubby say: " every things happen for a reason, so now wat we need to do is just be patience..."

Monday, October 19, 2009


Money is the root of all evil!!! Money is never enough!!! Who invented Money is defenitely a devil :P So who the heck invented money? Some say the Phoenicians invented money~! well i don know is that true or not n thats not the issue of today...

When you first time receive your paychk of cos u'll use it to buy necessary and those unnecessary... probably u might donate some to ur families... then later on when ur necessary and those unnecessary increase ur amt of money being pay as salary will not be enough... then u will start to blame the company for not increase ur salary... later the longer u work the less money u hav left of kos probably ur assets are gettin more ( e.g cars, hi-fi, clothes & etc)

thats why ur money is always not enough!!!

Sunday, October 18, 2009


A chatter of mine is getting divorce. I don know why... since he is so unhappy wit his marriage, he choose to end it but in the end he still unhappy. While we chat he Get mad at me saying to me "don be an smart arsh"

ok i say i don understand and maybe i don know....

Why A relationship for so long will hav to end up like this. Not that i never had a HUGE argument wit my hubby, but whenever a big fight is going to fight, anyone of us should leave the place so that nothing worst is going put of our mouth to hurt the others.

Why will a relationship turn sour? Because both ppl are not working hard enough to save it. I'm not being an smart arsh. I just don't understand since ppl are getting a divorce why they had to get married in the first place, vow for staying wit the other half no matter wat.

I really believe there's eternity love. But eternity love maybe only happens in the movie, or probably 3 out of every 10 couples. the rest most probably is become a habit.... a habit just to stay wit each other...

i ever read a joke:

B4 married, a boy fren will always bring the gal to watch movie. They will always sit on the couple sit which cost the tickets abt $10. After married, they will still go to watch movie and this time the couple will just only take for the Normal sit cost abt $7. But after having babies, they'll buy Pirated DVD $3.00 and watch at home.

Funny isn't it? But thats true and thats how the situation is. So we cannot blame anyone for the relationship turn sour, wife become too nagging, money always not enough. Before ur salaries is $2k per month, after married still B$2k... After havin kids probably u're salary raise to $3k but do u think all this will be enough?

Life is like a roller-coaster... everyone will always be in a nigeria symptom.... I'll just tell myself. Be patient, don worry, everything's gonna be ok cos thats not the worst of all worst...

Friday, October 16, 2009

dear dad~

This is a story abt a dad receive a letter from his son:

Dear dad,

I'm writing this letter to you in a very very sad and bad mood. First of all, I wan to thank you for this 15 yrs and I will always Remember. I was force to run-away wit Ahwen. I runaway without saying goodbye is because I don want to argue wit you. Hence I hope you do understand. I really love Ahwen. Even you dislike the stud on her tongue and her nose, the tattoo on her butt, but this is wat we call fad nowadays. You and mum will never understand.

You all dislike her, Ahwen say never mind, she will forgive you. Our love is not only abt sex but also abt feeling. Althougt she is Older than me but she say she don mind and hope that we'll love each other forever.

Ahwen is pregnant wit my baby. And you are going to become a grandfather. She say she will not do abortion and will give birth to more of our babies.

Pls do not worry abt our allowance. we'll grow lot's of marijuana and exchange cocaine wit our frenz. This will help hers reduce her pain. Hopefully one day her AIDS will be cured.

Your Son,

P/s: Dad, wat I write above is not true. Don't worry. Now i'm playing online games wit my fren at his house. No girl friend and No drinking. I just wanna remind you that in this world worst thing will happen. Pls open my drawer and look at my reposrt card. The result is very bad. Pls forgive.... or maybe if you are not angry anymore pls call my HP and ask me to come back for dinner ...



Zakat, one of the five pillars of Islam, means giving one's small percentage of possesion ( wealth surplus) to the charity.

This few days' hottest issue is the ZAKAT funds hand by His Majesty the Sultan to needy families. Link:

As stated, His Majesty the Sultan and Yang Di-Pertuan of Brunei Darussalam handed over abt $90-million worth of zakat funds to 4k needy families in Brunei.
This has made many Bruneian cries of Joy & happines. The whole market of Brunei become active again.

Just like i always say where can you get a leader as good as our Sultan. In this country you get so many benefit that you couldn't get in other country.

Friday, October 9, 2009


Was recently go through a virtual fren's photo album in FB, Subject: My Fav Bikinis. She is sexy and make alot of pose but not too over. PPl starts to make comments some good and some bad. But the worst is " I WANT TO F*CK U" erm.... that guy has his FULL name and wit his picture....

isn't he feel ashamed of doing this? i just don't understand what is he trying to do? humiliating that gal or humiliating himself? He never saw gals wit bikini b4? go get a life

Thursday, September 24, 2009

RIP Yoshito Usui

I just bought Crayon Shin-chan manga few days ago & i receive the news the creator's Yoshito Usui body was found below the mountain's Tomoiwa cliff. So sad, another talented guy gone so young =(

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Selamat Hari Raya

It's the last day of Bulan Puasa and everyone is bz wif their shoppin. Me? bz surfing, baby sitting answering phone, houseworking....

life is bored. Every year the same. after this will be the x'mas season, then New year. talking abt new yr, wat's my new year resolution this year? I totally forgot! shit... getting Old~ ( i know i know many will scold wat do u mean by YOU ARE OLD - hmff!! ) but the thing is I'll tend to forgot things, getting eye bags ( ok ok thats cos i sleep late :P) my skin turn rough, i'm gettin tan =(, having digesting prob.

And now i'm thinking wat hav I been doing for the past few yrs? I've live glory and now ... I'm stuck here. Yes, it's a nigeria symptom which everyone hav to go through. I guess so.... there's no one's life is perfect. Everyone have to face the trouble.

Soooo... now i should start thinking abt wat's my 2010 resolution: as usual, good fotune, better luck & healthier, happier, hippiest kids =)

Selamat hari Raya to all my Muslim frens!!!

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Veni, Vidi, Vici

i really hav countless blogs and i will always abandon it in the end. I hope this will be my last blog~

Vēnī, vīdī, vīcī

I first saw this words is on FB post by a fren means: I came, I saw, I conquered in Latin words. It was written by Julius Caesar. I was first impress by this word is because of Veni - close to my name Venie. Now i found out i ever come across this words b4, as in Ghostbusters, Bill Murray's character Dr. Peter Venkman says, "we came, we saw, we kicked its ass!". In Ocean's Eleven, Reuben refers to a man attempting to rob money from a casino and being shot, saying, "He came, he grabbed, they conquered."